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I don’t know about life that’s why God is making me experience it. I was living alone simple no one is hurting me. I was fine with my life. I was living my life or that is what i thought of. Until I left and went to Saudi. People hurt like never before. People used me abusively hurting my emotions. I thought of wanting to leave my life. Until I guess met him. I thought he loved me but not. He was never in love with me. I thought to myself I do love him so I prayed if he’d leave me, leave me a souvenir for me so that I can still live my life and not think about him anymore but he took me just like an orphan. Just to say he’s a responsible or that he has a responsibility to take because he made me pregnant or should I say I am pregnant. And now I have 3 children all girls with a bag of all of his words of wisdom or should I say insults and make my ego and pride lower than ever before. I am down. Until now he is still no in love with me as he said. Well I guess I said to myself I have to love myself now because no one will. My children will leave me when they’re old enough to stand their own feet. I have to love myself and make myself rich with beauty and wisdom that only God can give it to me. I pray that I will love myself and hopefully find beauty inside me that can radiate to anyone can find me and tell me I love you.

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